Feel like i’m going to take the challenge,it is stressful for lazy people like me who always wasting time on leisure.It’ll be a stressful year huh?!SPM,seriously,i didn’t do my best as i knew i will continue form 6 after form 5. But i did try my best. The attitude did control the results.2010,the coming STPM,can i do my best and beat the rest?Sounds stupid but i really worry.

Ten something,i was watching TV at the living room.My dad came back with motorbike,but not on it,he was walking back with his motorbike.Initially, i thought it was running out of petrol,thus my dad pushed it back.But i was wrong,my dad said he and my sister were in an accident,and my sis was sitting at the roadside.My dad came back to take the car and send my sis to hospital.I heard what he said, and i acted.

My dad went to the place where accident happened,i saw a girl,bruises all over the body..Her face,nose,mouth were bleeding.Thank you for those passerby who helped to take care of her during the short period when i dad went back home to take the car.

We together moved her into the back seat,then my dad drove to the Hospital Kluang.On the way,she asked,what had happened,she forgot what had happened.In the hospital,the nurse told us that she didn even remember her name.That was terrible.She had the X-ray check up,but nothing strange was found.She was unconcious,kept asking my fifth sis what had happened.

Today,we visited her.She told my sis she remembered the accident,few minutes later,she  forgot.I could hardly breathed when i was there(difficulty in breathing).Whenever i go hospital,ward especially,i felt like difficult to breathe.

My dad,60 years old,with blood and bruise every part of the body,still driving to the hospital.I, 18 years old who also holding a driving license for 9 months,sitting beside him.I was that useless i found.

The car which crashed with our motorbike didn even brake after knocking daddy’s motorbike.Toyota,yellow in colour,escaped.

Police report wouldnt work,because nobody saw the numbor plate.

Hope everything will be fine.

i hope my hair can grow longer and faster…

I fall back into sin.

Love hurts,thus we lie.

we lie to our friends,parents,families,and ourselves.

I’ve been lying so many times that i really hate myself  because whenver i told lies,guilt arises.I lied as lie may comfort me and bring me to the safe zone. When people believe in you,you have to keep telling lies so that the lie will not be revealed.Someday,it will reveal itself  but i want to be the one to unveil it.

Love is blind that makes you fragile.

Crying makes my eyes smaller.

Ridiculous?In you,i am,but just you dont understand that i cry because i love you.I knew each time i cried,your heart was bleeding too,but i jus cant control myself and tears to flow down my cheeks.

p/s:i love you.

忧郁。犹豫。

心情。心晴。

没试。没事。

羡慕。嫉妒。

好想。好些。

笑容。削弱。

对不起。对不气。

穷途。未知路。

面子。免止。

希望。希妄。

我哭。我苦。

没有原因的自责。

难堪。

I realised that i was just too stupid to think of the negative sides.

No more time to be wasted and i have to manage myself as well as my time.

I could just live once,no second chance.

Contracting and relaxing.

Antagonistic life.

i wish to find back the past,but reluctant to let go the present.i’m just too greedy.

我只是被一个虚有的空壳/名义套上。

惯性成为名单内被列入的名字，

事实上只是个不被看好的垃圾。

随着时间的海浪漂流，

起起落落，

在他们眼中，

只是我怪。

渐渐被忽略。

成为了细菌。

在空气中坚强地，挣扎。

我羡慕她，

至少有爱情，她过得很好。

可是，当我独自走入人海，只能默默看着别人的影子。

我羡慕，两个好朋友无时无刻都黏在一起，

我需要，我留了个空位，却永远都没人坐。

可能是我离队了，

但我的理由却是没有原因留下。

降级了，从你心们的心里至我心。

我期望，还有你，我庆幸，还有你，

但是当我转过身，却发现你不能永远都在。

我不想让你看到我疲惫的背影。

遗憾，徘徊。

学习适应，放下。

That kind of feeling that you cant express in words how idle i was.

So sad,i failed to express myself..

感觉好像与身边的人越来越遥远，还是我只活在自己的世界里呢？

is time to stop and smell the roses.

感觉好幸福，虽然很无助，可是一转身，我就能感觉到你。

虽然遥远，心却与我同在。