I realised that i was just too stupid to think of the negative sides.

No more time to be wasted and i have to manage myself as well as my time.

I could just live once,no second chance.

Contracting and relaxing.

Antagonistic life.

i wish to find back the past,but reluctant to let go the present.i’m just too greedy.

我只是被一个虚有的空壳/名义套上。

惯性成为名单内被列入的名字，

事实上只是个不被看好的垃圾。

随着时间的海浪漂流，

起起落落，

在他们眼中，

只是我怪。

渐渐被忽略。

成为了细菌。

在空气中坚强地，挣扎。

我羡慕她，

至少有爱情，她过得很好。

可是，当我独自走入人海，只能默默看着别人的影子。

我羡慕，两个好朋友无时无刻都黏在一起，

我需要，我留了个空位，却永远都没人坐。

可能是我离队了，

但我的理由却是没有原因留下。

降级了，从你心们的心里至我心。

我期望，还有你，我庆幸，还有你，

但是当我转过身，却发现你不能永远都在。

我不想让你看到我疲惫的背影。

遗憾，徘徊。

学习适应，放下。

That kind of feeling that you cant express in words how idle i was.

So sad,i failed to express myself..

感觉好像与身边的人越来越遥远，还是我只活在自己的世界里呢？

is time to stop and smell the roses.

感觉好幸福，虽然很无助，可是一转身，我就能感觉到你。

虽然遥远，心却与我同在。

Selamat Hari Raya~

Also a big day to my 80++-year-old grandma…Happy Birthday~

I wondered,why will i become so far away from my grandma…Actually i was brought up by my grandma…Frankly,i dont much remember what had happened when i was small..lost memory?

I used to think that the language was the obstacle for me to communicate with my grandma,but i knew i was totally wrong…Even my cousins could communicate with my grandma with chinese and my grandma replied using hakka or cantonese.And i realised,it was love.

‘Ah na wun deh deh’’s best friend ,Eddie was celebrating his Raya today.As our intention was to return something to him,Eddie’s family was too excited+friendly+passionate..even the innocent me in the car was invited to go in the house..I was so lost frankly..I dint know how to react at that time…Ambil salam?I let the car engine on,and went down…It was so embarassing…His mother wanted me to have some kuih raya on the table,but i refused to eat  ’cause we were rushing on time.I didnt tell mak cik the reason,and the mak cik showed me that kind of expression as i was very rude..so sad…I just,failed.

Wuwuwuwu..for your sake,i will learn to be better.I miss you~

“Something always brings me back to you,that is gravity.”

The distance between friends.

I realised,some factors pull us so far away.

I dont really understand your situation now,or i just dont manage to see your shadow.

The same goes to you i think.

Well,i’ll find a way to connect the gap,heart to heart.

No way to return,since i have already chosen to study Form 6,i must do my best.To be the ideal me…Basically,is because of u,mum and dad.i will do my best because of u all.thanks for the encouragement.luv u~

Form 6 is really suffocating~Revising everyday?try to reach that yet it is just too hard for me.i wanna to catch all the stars,maybe one already enough,however,the twinkle twinkle little stars for me they are just imaginary diamonds,you can never make them as ring and wear them on your finger.Oops,prefer graphite?

Day by day,week by week,month by month,year by year…Life is being wasted?Is that true?It is just an opinion or it will become a statement one day?

Efforts’re needed to reach sucess,still,it will come to a naught when people pass away…Fame?Wealthy?Why are you fighting for?

i prefer to be “khailism”.I’m telling rubbish.

主动踏出了那一步，原来是那么重要的。

它让你知道别人的想法，

它让你知道误会到底在哪，

它让你反省自己的过失，

它把受伤的心灵给治好了。

虽然我并没有告诉他们真正的原因，

因为其中的原因也是由人类的不完美组成的。

如果你可以接受别人对你的看法，

你也会接受别人眼中的自己。

谢谢你们，我学会了，

不去计较人的不完美。

有时不说出来反而会有更好的效果。

不要对别人有太多要求，

每个人都有自己的角色。

勇敢踏出这一步，绊脚石能变成垫脚石。

成长了。

学会了快乐的方法。

明天又会是美好的一天。

人生只有一次，

你却不知道会不会有每一个明天。

快乐的过生活吧。。

让人生变得精彩。

不会再说别人的不好，

因为最终会发现自己是多么的愚蠢。

本来一点都不气，只是想闹闹你，结果发现我原来真的那么的卑微。

对你而言，原来失去一个朋友可以那么随便。

反正已经不被在乎了，现在只想被你们在乎。

可是后来还是决定直接放弃吧。

朋友原来只是个工具。

俗语说，如果要朋友对你好，就要对朋友好。

那么原来我对朋友根本都不好，因为我并没有得到想象中的回报。

也可能只是因为，我太在乎你们了。

所以我非常的在意。

说真的，好朋友这个词我不会随便标记。

结果，你们的probability越来越低了。

其实你们也不care吧。。。

我会好好过日子的。