你誤解了啦～順其自然，沒有絕對的對與錯。謝謝你咯～不用去爭論，看法與事實不會劃上等號。只是看法在改變，不是因為偏見，而是還沒完全掌握某樣事情。那時沒有在隱喻什么啦，只是當下的一個心情。我會珍惜，因為一直以來，我不懂得珍惜。不能阻止任何的變化，我也還在學習怎樣維持一個更重要的感情。可能之前有點沮喪，因為發現有些事情改變了。可是，這是我的選擇，選擇了另一個感情，沒有話題了嗎？只是你們不是那些適合談論這些話題的人，畢竟我的感情并沒有被你們完全認同。本來打死我都不想承認這是其中一個最大的原因，可是還是要接受。有得必定有失。所以大家一起努力吧！

Less blogging now as i’ll write the current status using facebook~

No,can’t be that lazy~will keep writing blog ya~

herm,well,i’ve been lost…not knowing that why should i feel sad for having no close friend in school…people have their own gang that certainly will not forget them…But i was lost in the gang,they treat me good,a very good company,but  i will not be their listener and also they will not be those who i can share my feelings with.They’re good friends but not my close friends.I cannot blame anybody,because people changed,i changed,friendship will change.I am not those kind of species who will take the initiative to interact with others.They’re really excellent friends,just that they’re not define as close friends in my dictionary.I am certainly not a close friend to them as well…I need… their companies~這感覺已經不對我努力在挽回～

So down..down..down…

Can’t concentrate in the class…i found that i really not good in socialising.

Being neglected by friends?!It wasnt the first time.

I always be the backup to accompany people?!

Herm..nothing lar..I first realised that when Xueqi was not around during form 4…

I was that silly thinking of having lots of friends and so proud of it, but i was that pity for being so naive.Friends are superficial huh?!

People will not tell you your weaknesses or not even criticise you.That’s too bad.B’cause they did all these behind you.That’s horrible.Do not underestimate this power.

Just still can’t accept that i don’t even have a best friend for years.Flew to taiwan already huh?!Or maybe best friend has already changed status to good friend.It all depends lar…Just how i define it.Maybe i am the superficial one?!

Muet…i found that my english is too bad…even worse than primary school pupils.

Oh dear,time to sleep yet lots of homework are waiting for me…No pain,no gain lar…Jiayou ba…

Sun-burnt again for RM20.That’s stupid.

I have faith in you though we couldnt even communicate more than 20 minutes sometimes.But i understand and i know you’re suffering though you said it is better than before.

Tired of staying back after school.I hate it.U grab my time for the stupid marks that it is only meant for marks.I’ll volunteer to join n participate if it isnt compulsory.Suffocating!!!

Feel like i’m going to take the challenge,it is stressful for lazy people like me who always wasting time on leisure.It’ll be a stressful year huh?!SPM,seriously,i didn’t do my best as i knew i will continue form 6 after form 5. But i did try my best. The attitude did control the results.2010,the coming STPM,can i do my best and beat the rest?Sounds stupid but i really worry.

Ten something,i was watching TV at the living room.My dad came back with motorbike,but not on it,he was walking back with his motorbike.Initially, i thought it was running out of petrol,thus my dad pushed it back.But i was wrong,my dad said he and my sister were in an accident,and my sis was sitting at the roadside.My dad came back to take the car and send my sis to hospital.I heard what he said, and i acted.

My dad went to the place where accident happened,i saw a girl,bruises all over the body..Her face,nose,mouth were bleeding.Thank you for those passerby who helped to take care of her during the short period when i dad went back home to take the car.

We together moved her into the back seat,then my dad drove to the Hospital Kluang.On the way,she asked,what had happened,she forgot what had happened.In the hospital,the nurse told us that she didn even remember her name.That was terrible.She had the X-ray check up,but nothing strange was found.She was unconcious,kept asking my fifth sis what had happened.

Today,we visited her.She told my sis she remembered the accident,few minutes later,she  forgot.I could hardly breathed when i was there(difficulty in breathing).Whenever i go hospital,ward especially,i felt like difficult to breathe.

My dad,60 years old,with blood and bruise every part of the body,still driving to the hospital.I, 18 years old who also holding a driving license for 9 months,sitting beside him.I was that useless i found.

The car which crashed with our motorbike didn even brake after knocking daddy’s motorbike.Toyota,yellow in colour,escaped.

Police report wouldnt work,because nobody saw the numbor plate.

Hope everything will be fine.

i hope my hair can grow longer and faster…

I fall back into sin.

Love hurts,thus we lie.

we lie to our friends,parents,families,and ourselves.

I’ve been lying so many times that i really hate myself  because whenver i told lies,guilt arises.I lied as lie may comfort me and bring me to the safe zone. When people believe in you,you have to keep telling lies so that the lie will not be revealed.Someday,it will reveal itself  but i want to be the one to unveil it.

Love is blind that makes you fragile.

Crying makes my eyes smaller.

Ridiculous?In you,i am,but just you dont understand that i cry because i love you.I knew each time i cried,your heart was bleeding too,but i jus cant control myself and tears to flow down my cheeks.

p/s:i love you.

忧郁。犹豫。

心情。心晴。

没试。没事。

羡慕。嫉妒。

好想。好些。

笑容。削弱。

对不起。对不气。

穷途。未知路。

面子。免止。

希望。希妄。

我哭。我苦。

没有原因的自责。

难堪。